I am never anywhere
Anywhere I go
When I’m home, I’m never there
Anywhere I go
When I’m home, I’m never there
Long enough to know
— boygenius, Ketchum ID
— boygenius, Ketchum ID
you are forty-one when you take a trip with your mom
to the place she grew up
so different than yours
you are reminded
that just being
is enough
ready
open
here
so different than yours
you are reminded
that just being
is enough
ready
open
here
you were six years old when you had your first watch
checking obsessively the passing of time
from any given moment to the next
elasticity
waiting one minute = one hour
fun one hour = one minute
from any given moment to the next
elasticity
waiting one minute = one hour
fun one hour = one minute
the theatre reminds you of this
you wonder what you actually practice
a lot of sitting email always email watching
a lot of sitting email always email watching
present permeable
but you’re just not there right now
you are stuck
how long it will take
but you’re just not there right now
you are stuck
how long it will take
that moment before something is about to happen
where anything is still possible
in between
this is where you are
stuck
in between
this is where you are
stuck
you still savor that moment
prepare for it
be ready to receive
crave
that feeling when
first time again and again
be ready to receive
crave
that feeling when
first time again and again
your cells move
like a boat that replaces parts at every port
nothing everything
is the same
like a boat that replaces parts at every port
nothing everything
is the same
but being there is not the same as being
present
that moment is in between
it is a place you know have always known how do you know
it is a place you know have always known how do you know
and so you stay there
don’t get distracted
because how could you be present
because how could you be present
the song stuck in your head
the grocery list
the name(s) of your imaginary cat(s)
the petty little grievances
get out
the grocery list
the name(s) of your imaginary cat(s)
the petty little grievances
get out
what is this body in this space
ingat they say
she said you take care
do not forget me he said
she said you take care
do not forget me he said
breathe in and out
feel the ground
but jet lag always the jet lag
feel the ground
but jet lag always the jet lag
ingat the word that wakes you
do not look at your watch
not yet
not yet