When you leave you leave the windows open and the doors    and because the house sits by the sea      by first light a film of sand gilds the floorboards and the kitchen chairs

                                              in the upholstery the mites unconcernedly devour and shit

and a moth turns fluttering in a pillar of light in the stairwell

 

sand eddies in over days       and weeks            rounding  blurring
mirrors cloud and tarnish in the bathroom and the hall        and a spider skitters over last year’s news in the kindling box

 

on a summer night with a full-moon tide the weeping crack in the sea wall goes and the water comes in six inches deep    scalloping the sand in the kitchen into a shallow bowl from the dishwasher to the ironing board
a hermit crab tugs determinedly on a sprig of dandelion snagged
on a hinge    his claws cause minor avalanches

 

pipes freeze and thaw              ghosts in the walls
                          mold then moss in the upstairs closets
and then when

the biting edge of a hurricane peels back the roof and the light comes in         the shell of your house weathers like the ribcage of a whale

it smells of dirt and salt in the bathtub drain

 

swifts roost in the shattered chimney   and the scarified pits left by raccoons in their latrine beside the bookcase   crack open and unfurl     roots blind down and sideways    a pale tendril reaching up
      and   in four springs   it’s wreathed in white              and a branch holds out a bruise-blue plum through the window like a lantern

in the wavering shade of the screen porch an elfin-faced fox lays down to die       and when she does
her belly blooms black with maggots and flies        a crow nuzzles her snout with his sharp dark beak

 

the wind keens through the rafters                the steady heart-sound of the sea

 

 

and you return      years older now and gray   and stand in what was once the doorway
                        holding    absurdly    a broom.

 

 


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